So this is embarrassing.   Instead of keeping it to myself, I’ve decided to share my embarrassment and subsequent humiliation with you, the kind reader.

But first, as usual, some background…

Richard and I met almost 26 years ago (in November it will be 26 years) at the Lowes Southwest Movie Theater.  This was my 2nd job (I worked as a temp. in the Radiology department at St. Luke’s Hospital during the day).  I had worked on and off at Lowes since I was 16. If I wasn’t working there, I had friends there and was always up there anyway.   I don’t think I “paid” to see a movie from the ages of 16 to 28.   The true approval from me for a movie was if I would have paid to see it.    Now that I’m a grown up, I am much choosier with the movies that I go see.

Last night, the whole (as in all 5 of us) went to go see “Guardians of the Galaxy, Vol. 2”.  Yes, we saw it in 3D.  It was a $200 evening for us.  5-3D tickets + concession stand…  it’s a lot.  That’s why I am so picky.  Honestly, I’d rather buy another pair of shoes or several boxes of clay or replenish my dwindling tea supply.  But it’s good to all go together and have some escapism for a while.  Did I get my moneys worth.  Sure.  But that’s another post.  Let’s finish this one first.

It’s been an emotional rollercoaster for me, the last couple of weeks.  Happiness, sadness, excitement, anger, lethargy, pride, love, embarrassment… you name it, I think I’ve gone through it.  So watching this science-fiction, space movie last night, I wasn’t expecting to get it, right in the feels.

I guess this is where I need to say “SPOILERS”.

I’ll say that the theme was family.  You bicker with your sibling.  They are still your sibling and will be there for you, no matter the pain you have caused them, and vice versa.  Your parents love you and will do the best thing for you even if you think that they aren’t (at least at the time).   So you have your family bond (by blood or choice) and you have your Friend family that fills in all the “stuff” that your blood family misses.

Here’s the kicker… you may not realize who is your family until they aren’t there when you need them to be, or as usually are. That’s what sucks.  The realization that you have lost something that you didn’t know you had.  It’s like you’ve been holding someones hand and then suddenly that hand is gone and yours is all cold and odd feeling.   I get it, it’s hard to keep yourself closed off from pain, to not let anyone in…  But isn’t it a primal feeling to allow yourself to be open to new experiences. new feelings?  I’m not saying go jump out of a plane or go free-diving, but be open and receptive.

This is something I wasn’t expecting from a Marvel Movie.  Maybe it’s just me, being the emotional wreck that I have been this week reading so much more into it that I should.  Actually, that’s probably more of what’s going on than anything else.

I think I’m going to fix myself another cuppa and call my sister and tell her that I love her.  Then I may call my Mom and Dad and let them know that I love them too.   Hummm… my Dad will ask how much money I need and then we’ll have a good laugh.